I have known heights, aimed
like a bullet to the top of my head.
I have known forbidden songs, jagging
Water blood water bone — my body,
incessantly crying out to me.
How long the abuse, how long!
In the barreled pit of my sober life
up from common sense–snapping into it,
my soul came alive.
Alive I say.
By grace I breached.
Free in the wind.
All you Kingdoms of water everywhere–
hear now the words of my tears.
I slam on the brakes, tear off the roofs
of steel compartments.
I see sky and feel in daylight all the hidden stars.
I declare — the emperor of death
has no clothes.
I scatter forgiveness, unjudging,
across all the fattened streets.
Oceans of me go singing.
Spinning angels’ symphony.
Over the graves of my ancestors, I vow.
Water, I shall love you.
I shall speak up and protect you.
I shall fight for you.
I shall fight and die if I must.
Ten times ten give my very life
— that you live.